Wisdom teeth suck

SO yesterday I had all four of my wisdom teeth taken out. I have track lines on my arm like a heroin addict, stitches all over my mouth, and this aweful nauciousness whenever I try to eat or drink anything. It sucks. But after the "surgury" I woke up and started to cry, so jenn was there and her mom drove us to the bus stop where we went back to her house, and we've been watching sex and the city and the OC ever since :)

Gareth and I plan to hang out soon. I am pleased, I really missed him, and things are going very well

I'm still considering going out to the movie with Will and jenn tonight, but I'm feeling really sick, so its probably a bad idea

I'm so hot! its really warm upsteairs, and my chipmunk face cant take it much longer!!!

You guys should start commenting more, or I wont bother posting. Its all about the comments people!!!

Crazy dreams

I had a really weird dream last night. I can't remember much about it, but Brianna was there, and I woke up shaking my head a little. It was very odd.

Seussical

is now finished. Part of me is so super sad to see it go, honestly, other people were like "man I hate this play" and I was all no way! I LURVE it, that and it was my LAST arts alive play EVER. Arts alive is so crazy weird, it seems to create and destroy relationships like mad! It must be something aout the highly stressed and emotionally charged atmosphere, the large amounts of alchohol consumed and all the onstage drama, leaking offstage. It was weird seeing people like Peter Starr last night, (cast party) I havent seen him in forever and a day. I had a good, and very important conversation with Gareth which may lead to more good and important conversations in the future, and that pleases me greatly.

In other news, Shane and I for sure, absolutly, no doubt have a place in Victoria, (I was about to put my new address here, and than I realized that I am posting on the internet, and there are scary people out there. so if you want to know - ask!) Its in Laura McNaught and Elena's building, which is really cool, it means I have 3 friends already there within a 30 second run up the stairs away. for each of us rent will be about $330/month including heat hot water and hydro, and than cell phone $50, Bus pass $50, food $200 (including the occasional pizza order) I dont think I'm missing anything major... I'm so excited, you wouldnt even beleive!!!!

looking even farther back in time, tasha threw me a surprise party for my birthday!!! I love that girl:)

SO much has happened, I dont even know what to say.... it smells like cat food here though, SO I think I'm going to go and get ready for work. I'm getting my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow :S

Happy Birthday to me!!!

In the past year - Significant events

Theatre
- this time last year We hadn't "performed" copa yet :S
- I had an awesome experience in the Gondoliers with Arlene, Kelli, morgan, Sarah, joel, Geoff, and all the rest of everyone
- had great boobs in Bye BYe Birdie as Gloria Rasputin (Tap dancing and boobs that increse in size are not good!)
- Panto had great friends in it, and lots of that great backstage Panto Drama (nicole and jeff anyone?)
- This summer BC disability Games performance
- SEUSSICAL!!!!

Friends
- Met and kept tons of awesome friends this year
- Lost touch with some significant ones like Dan, Kelsey and Sarah :(
- Strained some friendships by doing stupid things.... but who doesnt?

Boys
- This time Last year I was still dating Gareth... wierd
- Chris (k, this one at least was totally my fault)
- A couple of other dabbles in the not-so long-term relationships

Overall, this year has been a good one, Grade 12, waas High stresss, but also High in output. Prom and Dry grad, as well as the "last" of a lot of things, make me sad, but also satisfy me. Thank you everybody for helping me to have a great 1-7, and lets hope to make 1-8 that much better!


(PS. I CAN BUY PORN!!!!!! (not that I will, but I CAN!!!!))

What Barbara thinks is fun

(Y) I have been drunk (More than Once!)
(Y) I have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(Y) I have kissed a member of the same sex
(N) I crashed a friend's car
(N) I have been to Japan
(Y) I rode in a taxi
(N) I have been in love
(Y) I've had sex
(N) I've had sex in public
(Y) I've shoplifted
(N) I have been fired
(Y) I have cut myself on purpose
(Y) I have been in a fist fight
(N) I've had a 3-some
(Y) I've snuck out of my parent's house
(N) I have been tied up
(N) I have been caught masturbating
(N) I have been arrested
(Y) I've made out with a stranger
(Y) I've stolen something from my job (like cookies? Or a danish?)
(N) I've celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(N) I've gone on a blind date
(Y) I've had a crush on a teacher
(N) I've celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(N) I have been to Europe
(Y) I've skipped school
(Y) I've slept with a co-worker
(N) I have thrown up in a bar
(N) I have purposely set myself on fire..
(Y) I have eaten sushi
(N) I have been snowboarding
(Y) I have been snow skiing
(Y) I have made a snow angel
(Y) I have been happy with myself
(N) I have met a movie star
(N) I had sex in a pool
(Y) I went to a prom
(N) I've bungee jumped
(N) I have been to a rock concert
(N) I have dated someone for over a year
(N) I sold naked pictures of myself
(Y) I have been in a car accident
(Y) I have slept in the nude
(Y) I've eaten cheesecake
(N) I've had jury duty
(Y) I've hated someone without knowing them
(N) I have been to Maine
(N) I've shot a real gun
(Y) I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles
(N) I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them (I dont think so)
(N) I've done ecstasy
(N) I've gotten my ass kicked
(N) I've been caught smoking
(Y) I've milked a cow
(Y) I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
(Y) I've cheated on someone (technically, but none of the participants in the situation count it as cheating)
(N) Lied one time in this survey
(N) Lied more then once in this survey
(N) Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
(N) Partied every weekend for the last month
(N) Sniffed markers to get high
(Y) Slept for more than 15 hours at a time
(N) Petted a live tiger
(N) Kissed someone in the snow
(N) Found a four leaf clover
(Y) Gave your parents the finger behind a closed door
(N) Masturbated each day for more than a week
(N) Gotten drunk in Germany
(Y) Cried in public
(N) Cried in public in the last 5 days
(Y) Been hit on by a member of the same sex
(N) Been asked to perform oral sex by a complete stranger
(N) Have unknowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
(Y) Have knowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship

I looked in a mirror today, and wondered who would take a picture of such an ugly person

Caffeine is cool

I have it a lot

Can you tell????

Arts ALive is full of slutty and skanky people
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I'm one of them

I'm talking to Gareth again, cuz it was his Birthday present that I forget about the things that make me mad about him, and that was awesome. I am so glad!!!

I got the "armour for sleep" CD today. Its pretty good.

I dont like immature people.... it bothers me a lot when people talk about each other behind their backs (and I know I'm a hypocrite, we all are!!!!)

Theres so much Drama, I'm trying not to get involved in at the moment

AJ kissed my cheek like a seal today :D

Where's jenn???

I like double spacing

A

LOT

:D

Theatre

I can not wait till seussical becomes a real production. AFter just one week we have so much!!! all of act one is blocked, and I know most of my songs (except all for you)

I love shows, I love the way a cast comes together, and the way we all (mostly) have history together, as friends or pen pals or fuck buddies or girlfriend/boyfriends. Theres a whole web of connections that we have and it makes us closer. I'm sad that nicole doesnt like it very much yet. I think its gunna be amazing, expecially with her as the cat:D

I'm tired though, and its 1:30 so I should prolly get to bed. Its tough being as busy as me :S

Boundin

Boundin

Narrator
Here's a story on how strange is life with its changes and it happened not long ago.

On a high mountain plain where the sagebrush arranges a playground south of the snow, lived a lamb with a coat of remarkable sheen.

It would glint in the sunlight all sparkly and clean, such a source of great pride that it caused him to preen.

And he'd break out in high-steppin' dance.

He would dance for his neighbors across the way.

I must say that they found his dancin' enhancin', for they'd also join in the play.

PAUSE

Then one day...

PAUSE

Then a-boundin' up the slope, came a great American Jackalope,
This sage of the sage, this rare hare of hope,
caused to pause and check out the lamb.

Jackalope
Hey, kid, why the mope?

Lamb
I used to be something, all covered with fluff, and I'd dance in the sunlight and show off my stuff. Then they hauled me away in a manner quite rough and sheared me and dumped me back here in the buff.

And if that's not enough, now my friends all laugh at me ‘cause they think I look ridiculous, funny and pink.

Narrator
Pink? Pink? Well, what's wrong with Pink? Seems you've got a pink kink in your think.
Does it matter what color? Well, that gets a nope, be it pick , purple or heliotrope.
Now sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down. When you find that you're down , well, just look around, you still got a body, good legs and fine feet, get your head in the right place and, hey, you're complete. Now as for the dancin', you can do more.
You can reach great heights in fact you can soar.
You just get a leg up and you slap it on down, and you'll find you're up in what's called "a bound." Bound, bound and rebound.

Bound and you're up right next to the sky.
And I think you can do it if you give it a try.
First, get a leg up, slap it on down.

PAUSE

So, every year, along about May, they'd load him up and haul him away.
And they'd shave him and dump him all naked and bare.
He learned to live with it, he didn't care.

He'd just bound, bound, bound and rebound.

Now in this world of ups and downs...

...so nice to know there are Jackalopes around.

I just don't understand how, you can smile with all those tears in your eyes when you tell me everything is wonderful now....

I miss the old crowd. I mean, I know things werent ACTUALLY simpler than, and I actually think I was prolly more angsty than, but it was good you know... no sex, no drugs, we didnt know about all of the family problems. Back then, my mom was only a bitch, cuz I wasn't allowed to walk alone at night, now I've lost respect because of bigger reasons.

The only problem with this is: what if all the changes that have happened in the past 5 years will happen again in the next 5? I mean will I look at my right-now problems, hopes and desires and realize that I'm stupid? I already look back at poetry I wrote last year and think - "what was I thinking?!?!?!?!?!?!" It makes me sad.

I don't want to change. I like who I am. I just want the world around me to change to fit this person I've become, Because I don't belong here

~~I don't belong here~~
~~~What the hell am I doing here~~~
~~~~I dont belong here~~~~

Tired

Remember how tired we all were last sunmmer, with the Arts alive commitment? well now I have that plus 8 hour work days, AND a social life. Shoot me now.

Reliability

Some of our friends just aren't reliable. And I don't understand it! I mean, maybe 3 times in the past couple months I have forgotten about a commitment, and not gone to something I said I would. But I write things down, and when I know that they are important to other people than I put more emphasis on them so I MAKE sure they don't forget. But can I really expect my friends to do the same? or is it my job to call everyone I know the day I'm having something to remind them not to let me down? Well they are (Letting me down, that is) and I don't appreciate it.