Names

1. Your Porn Star Name (name of first pet + ave or street you live on): Teaspoon Lancewood

2. Your Movie Star Name (grandmother's first name + favorite snack): Nell pineapple

3. Your Fashion Designer Name (first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant): August Acme

4. Your Foreign Name (favorite spice girl + last foreign vacation spot): Emma Indio

5. Your Socialite Name (silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied): Punkin Vernon

6. Your Fly Girl/Guy Name (first initial + first three letters of your last name): M-Bar

7. Your Detective Name (favorite animal + name of high school): Collie Dover

8. Your Bar Fly Name (last snack you ate + favorite alcoholic drink): Cracker Sunrise LOL

9. Your Soap Opera Name (middle name + street where you first lived): Chantal Kenwill

10. Your Rock Star Name (favorite candy + favorite musician's last name): Twix Haines

11. Your Star Wars Name (last three letters of first name in reverse + first car, "from the planet" > last medicine you took): ydo pony from the planet Halls

Frustration

Most things in my life are frustrating me right now. My family is moving, without a place for me, so I need somewhere to live. SOON. and I'd like to not be in Nanaimo, given the choice. I want to feel like I'm moving forward, and I'm just not feelin that here. It feels like everyones moving on, but I'm stuck in a rut, but where is that rut going? its leaving too, so what am I left with??? I could move to victoria, without a roommate, but its expensive and stuff.... and I get lonely... or I could share with someone I didnt know. Lame. I could find a room here in town. I could move to vancouver. fuck that I could move to vernon, or New Brunswick, If I really wanted to. Rent is cheap in NB. But I like it here. nd I want to go to school in van next year.

I'm also frustrated with some of the people in my life. I really value everyone I choose to spend time with, and some I don't spend much time with, but... theyre moving away, moving on, or just disinterested. what kind of friendships are those? When I NEED them, theyre not there. they PROMISE to call (actually using the word promise) and don't. I would be there for them in a heartbeat. Its not fair.

I miss shane already. no matter how emotionally devoid, detached, and assholish he can be sometimes, I still love that kid (as a friend!!!); one of the best people in my life. It was really nice seeing him this weekend. It meant a lot.

My love life isn't. absolutly devoid. Anybody I think I could possibly be into, isn't into me, and anybody I think might be interested in me, turns out, isn't. I mean, i know I'm not the most attractive, intelligent or talented person out there... but the last person was interested in me was gareth. and look how well thats going. (133 days. and counting. thats how much he hates me now)

Idunno... maybe things will look better when its not three in the morning, but everything looks pretty bleak right now. Heres fingers crossed for an aneurysm!

Secret Window, Secret Garden

Turns out I'm Not living with Chris. Things are up in the air, I don't even know!

On MOnday night we went out to cowboy night at the Gay Bar, it was tons of fun, stopped by the globe, and it really freaked me out because the stripper reminded me of amber :P

Currently in vernon, saw emilia, she says Hi, and went to a LOOOONG grad ceremony!!!

gotta go, grandma has cake!

PS if anybody's looking to get a roommate in vancouver, victoria, or nanaimo, for september, let me know. I am TIRED of living at home!!!!!!!

I have a place to live!

I'm moving in with Chris, under glenn's house! I'm just stoked to not live with my family anymore! The rent is really reasonable, and I know he doesn't like living alone any more then I do.

Yesterday I worked till 1:30 then I went home and then went up to chris' house to bring him dinner because he was really sick with a fever and stuff. Then I went to meet Jenn. Some mix-ups there I ended up going to her house around 11, and we made some pasta, she talked to Matt, and we went downstairs and read books till we fell asleep :) it was really low-key, but nice.

Today I'm supposed to work both jobs, but I'm only going to go to addition elle... I really don't want to, and my last day at suzie shier is next week anyways.

Coachella '07

Who's interested in going to Coachella next year? I know shane, Nick and I are going thus far, and I would really like it if we had a whole group of us that went, we could all camp in the same general area. This year it cost me about $1600, but we went to disneyland for three days, and spent some time in a hotel, etc etc, I figure your could do coachella with room to spare, including merch. for about $800. $250 for a bus, $250 with tax/exchange for the tickets and camping, $300 for food, extra transport and MERCH!

just putting the bug in anybodys brain, of course we don't know whos playing this year yet, but every year up untill now has had great people so I dont see why 2007 would be any different.

01. Stinkfist
02. The Pot
03. Forty-six & 2
04. Jambi
05. Schism
06. Eon Blue Apocalypse
07. The Patient
08. Sober
09. Lateralus
10. Vicarious
11. Ænema
- Tools set list

SO yeah... anybody thinking they might be up for it?

Bopbop buh bow!

I'm in one of those inbetween stages, you know? everything seems to be ending, and nothing good has come of it. Nothing fun has started. I feel like I'm inbetween people. There are some people in my life who are giving me very mixed messages! I don't know how to react to it, and its very frustrating. I'm thinking about moving to victoria or vancouver next september, cuz I just feel like theres a whole lot of stuff going on here, cycles I can't seem to get away from. But isn't that running? My problems aren't just going to go away if I move to another city, to a new group of people or hide my head in the sand for awhile. On the other hand, I want to deal with some of the things, but theres nothing I can do. Theres people I don't get along with, and It makes me uncomfiortable, but they seem to be fine with it, so how could I make a change for it? I can't. but it leaves me still unhappy, and I cant run away, and I can't change it. Humm.... Feels uncomfortable. I am peturbed. (sp?)

In news, I was over at Cora's last night. Had some brownies, went in nathan's car for a bit... watched Empire records, which I haven't seen in awhile... My head aches today though, and I'm not really sure why. I dont really feel like going to work either, but I have tomorrow off, I'm probably hanging out with Brianna and Barbara, unless I hang out with chris tonight, in which case, I won't. Ashley's Birthday Party tomorrow night, and then Janelle's birthday Party on monday night... Its a good time :)

I'm stoked to turn 19. Its my Golden Birthday this year :D

I think I'm gunna go drink some soup, sit in the hammock till its time to go to work. Maybe read a book or something

Posting is for people with computers that work

Unlike mine. Which doesnt.

WOrking.... quitting one work. Might be going to New Brunswick in a week or so, my poppa isn't doin so well, and my mom wants to go see him. That would put a wrench in my work though too. WHatevs.

I'm so messed up about whats going to happen next year. where I'm going to live, and who with... and where I'm going to work. I need to make those decisions soon, I dont like floating in ambiguity :/

STolen from Martha...
Name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head..
Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.

1. Jenn
2. Ashley
3. Dan
4. Glenn
5. Martha
6. Cora
7. Brianna
8. Laura B
9. Laura M
10. Barbara
11. Nathan
12. Spencer S
13. Chris R.
14. Stef
15. Shane
16. Will
17. Tasha
18. Gareth
19. Kevin
20. Jason
21. Megan

Q: How did you meet 14?
Humm.... Well it must have been in crazy for you. I'm sure that was it... Yeah, we wore those aweful bodysuits

Q: What would you have to do to see 10?
Call her up and convince her to invite me over. Or sneakily get invited to Briannas house

Q: What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
Gack, kill myself. I would seriously shrivel up and die.

Q: Would 21 and 12 make a good couple?
Actually yes. I can't seem them ever GETTING together, but once they were, it'd be great

Q: Describe 6:
How to describe her... Cora is thoughtful, kind, intelligent, pursuasive and very attractive. Shes also talented, and modest :P

Q: Do you think 19 is attractive?
depends on how you define attractive. I can see the things about him that would attract other people, but I, personally am not attracted to him :P
Q: Tell me something humiliating about 17:

Q: Do you know any of 4's family members?
I met his dad once, and I know his mom and sister on a first name basis.

Q: When's the last time you talked to 13?
We stopped in at his house last night... he was eating pie

Q: What is 2's favorite band?
Honestly... I couldn't tell you. She likes lots of different music.

Q: Would you ever date 5?
hahaha... probably. given the right circumstances. Yeah.

Q: Is 11 single?
Quite single

Q: Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 16?
No. I just wouldn't. Not because hes not a nice guy, but we're not compatable

Q: Where does 15 live?
Hammond Bay for now, but Vancouver soon

Q: Are number 7 & 8 best friends?
The certainly were at one point. drifting lately, but don't we all?

Q: Do you like 1?
Very much so

Q: Thoughts on 3?
A very cool, opinionated guy, with enough force in his personality to crush me like a worm

Q. Did you ever have a crush on 5?
loaded question. Not a serious one or anything, but probably a little one.

Q. Do you think 13 is attractive?
Yes. In a mildly odd sort of way.

Q. What's 21's favorite colour?
Green I'd guess. It looks awesome on her

Q. What would you do if 19 just confessed they liked you?
I'd be EXTREMELY taken aback and surprised

Q. What language does 20 speak?
English en espanol *drool*

Q. Who is 15 going out with?
Nobody

Q. Would you ever date 7?
No

Q. Would you ever date 1?
It would be weird. If she asked I'd be confused, but go along with it untill I understood the joke.

Q. Do you hate 21?
NOT AT ALL!!!!

Q. What is 9's last name?
McNaught

Q. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 2?
Nope.

Q. What school does 3 go to?
School of rock? :P

I am bored very very bored. I may sleep, I'm that bored :P

Amber's quiz game thing

List 10 musical artists you like (do this before reading the questions below).

1. Tool
2. Metric
3. Muse
4. Holly stell
5. Our Lady Peace
6. The Postal Service
7. Panic! at the disco
8. The Mars Volta
9. Coldplay
10. Incubus

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?: The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
What is your favourite album of 8? De-loused in the comatorium
What is your favorite lyric of 5:It all seems so contagious/Not to be yourself and faceless/In a song that has no soul
How many times have you seen each of your 10 bands live? I saw Tool and Metric
What is your favorite song by 7?: Build God and then We'll Talk
Is there a song of 3 that makes you sad? Yes. Many. Most of the absolution album could make me sad if I was in the right frame of mine. Its also hopeful, paranoid, loving, thoughtless and brooding.
What is your favorite song by 2?: Poster of a girl, dead disco, combat baby, torture me.
What is your favorite song by 9?: I think Fix you
What is your favorite album by 1?: Lateralus
How did you get into 3?: They were playing it when setting up sound at dover one day and I fell head over heels and when out and bought the album.
What is your favorite song by 4?: I dont know what theyre all called. its track 3 on her CD
Who is your favorite band member in 9?: Chris Martin
Which of the 10 has influenced you the most?: maybe Muse? I'm not sure Incubus or OLP have had big impacts on certain aspects of my life thats for sure.
What is a good memory concerning 2?: SEEING THEM LIVE AT COACHELLA!!!!!!
Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad?: Televators
What is your favorite song of 1?: Schism
How did you become a fan of 10?: Shane. he is like the biggest incubus fan ever, and he just played them so much it was love them or hate them, and I love them :)

Anyways, that was fun

I went to gabriola island.. it was intense. we had so much fun. smoked too much everything, drank too muchm, but i'm starting the master cleanse today, so at least It was a last hurrah for eating, drinking, and all that bad stuff :)

I have today and tomorrow off and then I work wednesday on. Ashleys birthday on saturday, Janelles birthday on sunday.

listening to coldplay :) mmm, I havent heard Yellow in so long. It was overplayed but it was a really good song :)